What do you do when you have no idea what you’re feeling? What as human beings are we exactly supposed to feel?
You’re supposed to be happy because you have a person in your life that you have as a lover and a best friend, but at the same time you have so many other emotions inside of you, but you have no idea what they are. You don’t know whether you should be happy or really scared to lose each other. You’re in a confusing state. You’re significant other has the same feelings as you and those feelings are confusing the exact way as well. Confused about emotions in their mind and heart.
What is it? Is this love? Or is this something much more deeper than love? The feelings are mutual and the feelings are deep, but neither one of you exactly understand these feelings that are inside of you. The worst part is that they won’t come out and can’t come out. Both of you try your hardest to understand what exactly it is that you both feel, but it’s impossible.
Both of you are scared of what could happen or couldn’t happen. Each day from the time you both wake up to the time you go to sleep, you’re on each other’s mind. You both could talk to each other 24/7, literally. Feelings come out everyday; new feelings and old feelings. Still, there is something inside of you both that you just don’t know what it is. Words can’t explain it and it’s overwhelming.
Love is defined in the dictionary as, “a strong positive emotion of regard and affection.” What if you’ve been hurt multiple times by the word, “love”? Not just you, but you’re significant other as well. What if the people you thought you “loved”, actually didn’t mean as much to you as the current lover and best friend in your life? You’re each the person in their dreams. The feelings go so much more deep for each other than any other person you thought you “loved” before. So I leave you with two more questions that I previously asked. Is this love? Or is this something much more deeper than love?